As soon as this new way of normal began back in March, I was blogging daily about all the things going on during this crazy time. Then "school" started back... and I have been trying to find my way! Usually during April I also blog about National Infertility Week.. and usually I also blog about what I learned from Texas Library Association. I did just share what we did during Lamar Teacher Appreciation Week
I am SO lucky to be a librarian! Librarians are even more important during this time where there is SO much information that is being pushed out, but also important with all the resources that we have!
April is also Library Month- and my staff was AMAZING and surprised me with a parade for School Librarian Day!
I love being me. I love being quirky. I love overextending myself to do activities. I love coming home tired, but knowing that I have accomplished things. I love reminding others that they are important. I love showing others that they are important. I love yelling at people.. "Love you Sunshine!" I love being around other people (even when I need a break.. I need people!) I love helping students find books. I love giving students a place to try new things. I love giving people the place to get out of their comfort zone!
All of the things above require actual physical humans. I am lucky to live in a world where I have technology so I can see faces or hear voices.. but that doesn't take the place of actual physical interaction with people.
April is usually hard because I share my own story about infertility awareness. You can find past blogs here, here and here. Mother's Day weekend is usually a little tough too.. because I am human. It is hard to know that I will probably never here "I Love You Mom"
Usually the sunny weather also makes everyone happier too, but this is such an odd time. I am also that weird person that is a people pleaser and needs words of encouragement. I am one that takes initiative and gets things done, but I also like to make sure that I am doing things correctly. Do any of us know if we are doing things correctly? I have felt so out of sorts.. and have felt that I am not doing enough.. or being enough. So I have been questioning myself a ton lately (which I can almost guarantee that many others are doing the same!) I also know that each of us is mourning and grieving different things right now for so many things from graduations, proms, weddings, get togethers.. and life in general. I also am always hoping that I am showing enough love to others.
Guys.. the love that I have felt this week has filled my heart. Irving ATPE allowed for us to have have a free grande coffee drink.. 2 times! Although it is hard, I was able to visit my library for the first time since March 12th (I also discovered the reason that students were making TikToks in one of the corners- it is a perfect spot!) I have been able to continue to have my Girl Scout meetings (man do the look different!) I was adopted and had an AWESOME family that I have known for years deliver goodies to me. I had one of the moms of one of my awesome Girl Scouts send me a text message with porch and when I looked outside I had had a basket full of goodies. I have a great new sign thanks to Mary Anne to hang in the library when we do go back to school. I was able to physically distance and see some of my favorite work friends for teacher appreciation. Friday We also had the Irving Muslim community provide us with lunch. Friday evening my husband walked out to get something from his car, and came back in asking why there were so many flamingos in our front yard. My Girl Scout Troop 6458 had Flocked my yard, not only did the is make me laugh so hard I cried.. I loved my personalized sign
Sometimes, you just have to share the super happy things and the ones that make your heart feel full of love when you are going through a tough time. I am thankful for those that I have in my life that continually show me love, give me words of encouragement, put up with my antics. I know that another National Infertility Awareness Week has passed and another Mother's Day where I will not hear "I Love You Mom" is coming up. More importantly though.. this is a reminder to myself that even though I might have tough times and I might not ever hear certain words.. my heart and life is full of love in so many different ways.
Thank you to those in my circle that give me so much love! If you ever need anything, please know that I am here for you as well! May we all get through this crazy time together.. while apart!
I love you Sunshines!