Next week is National Infertility Awareness Week. You can find more about it here.
I have written before about my infertility journey before- you can find it here.
I do have another blog that is more for health and wellness, but this is such a part of who I am.
Here is my disclaimer: I am SUPER happy for all the families out there. I am blessed to know so many wonderful families. I am happy where I am.. and who I am. That does not mean it is not hard to be happy when sometimes sad.
But this blog is more of reminding people that they are not alone.
This past year I went to my annual well woman visit at a doctor that I have been visiting for almost 7 years. We have discussed my infertility in the past, but more importantly.. my PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) But at this point in my life.. my well woman visit was more of how I am trying to change my eating habits, using oils to be more calm and centered, and the other things I was doing.
-You are not alone- your infertility hopes can easily change knowing your financial limits
During my well woman visit I had the conversation of where I was going next in my infertility journey. Now, remember I had said that I had been with this doctor for almost 7 years. During this 7 years he had recommended me seeing a true infertility specialist. I had spent thousands of dollars for medications, shots, procedures. But our time for this whole journey is not for right now. We discussed that when I was ready to really start trying again that it would be when I had my weight better under control and would try some new medication other than clomid.
-You are not alone- know that your journey is your journey and although the time limit might not be on the timeline that you expected- strength will get you through.
So, my well woman visit finished and I went about my way.. walking past all of the young and old mothers in the waiting room. Wondering when my time might be to sit in the waiting room with a round belly.
My whole visit- the regular well woman visit, a few questions about my PCOS, and where I was going next- all reasonable questions so I thought.
-You are not alone- having your doctor know all of your inner secrets, wants and needs is a normal procedure
I recently contacted my OB because of a charge that I had. It was only for $26, but it was for my last well woman visit. The well woman visit that is covered by my insurance. After being on the phone for about an hour with 2 different nurses and billing. I discovered that my OB had coded me extra for my PCOS and also for having longer than a 15 minute conversation. The $26 was not going to break the bank. It was the principal of the matter. The doctor that I had spent 7 years with, had shared my secrets and longings had charged me extra for asking questions. That $26 hurt my heart.
-You are not alone-
I will not be returning to that doctor or practice.
-You are not alone- your journey will take you to many doctors some who have your best interest and some who do not.
I have been so very blessed to be a part of so many wonderful lives. I have families that I am close to and have had a chance to watch their children grow and be a part of their families. I have had many wonderful students that their parents have opened their hearts and arms to me. I am constantly surrounded by amazing people that support me and love me for who I am. I also wouldn't change all of the adventures, journeys and lives I have had a chance to be a part of.
-You are not alone- there are people that surround you both young and old to help you make it through whatever journey you might be on.